I am having a BOY!!

I found out at my last U/S that I am having a healthy boy who seems to be measuring ten days ahead of my original due date- and boy is he a kicker already, I can't imagine what his kicks will feel like in the weeks to come. I also wanted to share that my pregnancy journey is better chronicled on my other blog: Tales of the Belly.

Please join me, more to come...

Drum roll please...............

Well you have all been waiting much more patiently than I have, well folks, I am 17 weeks PREGNANT!! After the adoption not going through I went through a lot, I really feel lost without my kaz baby and I will always hold a special place in my heart for my baby. While I was deciding on my next path, I thought it would be to buy a house, instead I consulted an RE and it worked, I am pregnant. I have been scared to say this forever, I have known since I was four weeks- which is so hard, b/c every day, week and month gives me that what if feeling. I have had two OB appointments now and am measuring well and in two weeks I go in for my U/S so I am feeling a little more confident, but this is all scary, I still wait with bated breath for this to actually feel like yes, I am going to have a baby in my arms in under 5 months.

So I bet you are all surprised and I will be posting info as I go!

Have a great Monday!!

Announcement

Big news coming soon!!

Stay tuned.....only a few more weeks........

It came and then it went...

Well Christmas has now come and gone, and it was really great this year, I was able to spend time with my family and that is by far my most favorite pastime (I miss you Jarod and Norie).

Christmas Eve- Jamie, Cory and I cooked all day while watching Christmas movies and listening to Christmas music.

On Christmas day we opened presents and spent time playing with our new gifts-its so fun!

I recieved the Pink "Funhouse" cd I really like it! Everyone should check it out.

Next Week?!

I cannot believe that Christmas is next week, where has the time gone. I keep having difficulty writing December on things let alone, comprehend that Christmas is next week. On Saturday I made myself go out and shop, but its getting hard all my family member are growing up- and what do you get people who have jobs and buy things when they want them- ughh. Well I am done with everyone except James she is a little trickier. However once I bought the gifts I wanted to buy more so their presents are a little bit more costly than previous years- but I love them and am making more and I just love to GIVE!!!

I sent out my secret santa blog present last week it should arrive tomorrow or even today- I hope she likes her gift. I will share what I got when I receive it!

I hope everyone is having a happy holiday season so far, I am having so much fun watching all of my friends meet their little ones, this truly is a magical time of year!!

Thanksgiving

Being Thanksgiving I thought it would appropriate to make a list of all the things I am thankful for:

1. My family
2. My faith
3. My puppies (they are three now, but they will always be babies to me!)
4. My Home
5. Thanksgiving Dinner
6. My friends
7. The ability to have a job I love
8. My Health
9. Arizona (Iowa is currently cold and damp-YUCK!!)

I think that is good for now, basically I am thankful for this beautiful life God has given me!!

Happy Thanksgiving!!

Relaxed

Surprisingly after all the upheaval and grief I experienced over the last month-6 weeks, I feel better than ever. When I was told of my denial from Kaz I literally felt like the sky I had fallen, I had never known such grief could exist, I will always remember that day and mourn the loss of my Kaz baby.

After receiving the news I thought I should push forward (I thought if I was still in the process I would find a sense of purpose and maybe even understanding) and I quickly found myself on the fast track to another country-however I wasn't feel good about my decision so after a very tough struggle and driving my family crazy with my with my constant question of "am I doing the right thing?", I decided to put my adoption plans on hold. Now today I am able to take a deep breath and find the simple pleasure in life without feeling stressed and overwhelmed and worried all the time. I am still young and if it wasn't my time before it doesn't mean it won't be my time in the future.

I am thankful for my Kaz experience even though for me it ended so abruptly and terribly, I still met a lot of fantastic people (and some new forever friends) and I am thankful that I was able to even attempt the adoption- I have a fantastic support system.

So today I am thankful and finding renewal- its a really good day.